My heart is full of love....

"To everything there is a season,

A time for every purpose under heaven"

....it's time to dance.

....sigh

... it's been a full, full three weeks. So good ....so full of life taking place before my eyes. -My dearest friend and sister - my Mel got engaged to a wonderful man last Saturday. OH it just fills me with joy for her!! there's nothing more I want than pure happiness and fulfillment in her life!! (thank you, Jesus!) God has been so intentional about putting them together ...stretching their story out over a course of almost 10 years. - I'm completely in awe of how He's gone about it all with such intricacy ... and now, more than ever - I know that when something is of Him ...there is no room for doubt - when His presence and blessing is all over something as it was with this - it is the ultimate - anything else is less than His best ...and time is too short to desire anything but His best. I also know that where His presence and blessing lie ...isn't necessarily where we think we'll find it or where we want it to be ... but oh- I wouldn't trade where I am now for anything - because here ... His peace floods me - and His comfort and grace along with it. What a beautiful, faithful God, this God of mine! I am satisfied - and restless for more...;)

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. ~Philippians

~**~

God has been taking me through such amazing processes - purging constantly ...always so gently. Today, on the way home from a weekend with my wonderful brothers - I was just soaking up time alone to share with Him things that had been on my heart lately - mostly about "next" ..."Lord, talk to me about this next season - I don't know what You have in mind. I so want a GOAL, Lord to press towards... but He stopped me in my tracks - "Stop talking and listen to Me" (lol...now THERE'S something I never hear :p) ...."oooook...?"

-It's crazy...those moments of utter TRUTH that He takes you through

- He began to show me a pattern in my life ...of goals to work towards ...and never- not once a season of just *being* - never a quiet season ...but always something to FILL that quiet - why? ...because for some reason - calm makes me nervous ....quiet is just too loud ... too full of uncomfortable realness between Him and I. - embarrassing to admit this fear ...I love Him so much... I TRUST Him so much ... yet there is something in me - that fears quiet with Him. "So", He said -"the 'next' you seek is that of standing still and seeking Me for no reason at all but to know more of Me ....Seek Me - and I will show you great and marvelous things that you do not know"

"I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me" -James

Ironic. The way He showed me this juuuust before I leave for Guatemala - the place where He always, without fail - meets me in mighty ways. - He's pretty much brilliant that way.